Memories part 1

I've never missed anyone as much as I miss you,

So badly some days I don't know what to do

my soul, it hurts deep, the pains raw, I don't sleep

but precious memories of you, I will keep, I will weep.

My hearts open and raw and this wound is so sore,

I beg now for mercy, I scream and plead for no more,

you were all that I wanted, I begged you to stay,

but you couldn't stay with us, your soul went away

I remember you laying so still on my chest, and

breathing so deeply, your best place to rest,

you thrived from my contact, you needed me near,

skin to skin touch, no tears and no fear

I gave you my milk, was told breast is best,

to create it so soon was a challenge, a test,

I watched you develop your suckle, and swallow,

I think of these times. I'm now empty, I'm hollow.

I chose colourful bedding, for your hospital cot,

wrapped in blankets from home, the staff liked them a lot,

I waited so patiently till you could wear clothes,

I loved all those moments, the outfits I chose.

We shopped for your mobile, with the colours so bright,

we left you with granny, the timing seemed right, but

we rarely went far, stayed by day, phoned at night

watched you fight for tomorrows, with all of your might.

These were our best times, although filled with stress,

yes we wanted you home, that we'll confess, because

to have you home with us, nothing compared,

to hold you close to us, while we lovingly stared.

We treasure those moments, the time spent with us,

we loved you, we spoiled you, we made a fuss,

The time home moved too fast, the days were so few,

we were happy together, just me, dad and you.